His mortality is certain. There is no question in my mind that this degree of physiologic injury is unsurvivable. Patients with bone marrow transplants with any degree of respiratory failure seldom recover, and anyone with this level of respiratory failure is on death's door. However, because of his age, his parents refused to let go. Day after day, we pushed on, doing little because everything that could be done was already done. It broke my heart. He was comfortable and sedated, but I knew there was no end point. I recommended transitioning him to comfort care, to have a peaceful end of his life.
The surrogate decision makers were intelligent but had trouble seeing the big picture. I do not blame them. For a child to die before a parent - I cannot think of a worse fate. Each day, we spent hours talking to the family, admitting that while we are not omniscient, we cannot expect anything but the one singular outcome. In the end, he went into multiorgan failure and died. But this is not the death I wished for him. On life support, we can keep anyone "alive." But everyone has to die, and death on life support is a death fraught with artificial lines and tubes, a lack of awareness, technological extremes, machines and devices. It is prolonged, dragged out and thinned so that what substance is left is minimal. It puts families through distress, caregivers through emotional turmoil, patients through suffering.
We could have called this medical futility and withdrawn care ethically. However, putting this into practice is an ordeal for caregiver and family alike. Sometimes, it is not easy being a patient advocate, an intensive care physician, and a fellow human being. Especially at the limits of medical care and the end of life, we face challenges that try everyone involved. We can only approach these with compassion, thoughtfulness, and equipoise.
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